Neil Gaiman says:

Neil Gaiman says:
pic by Allan Amato

Saturday, January 26, 2008

DEAD PERSON: [singing] I feel happy. I feel happy.


If you're wondering what THAT'S all about (title), then go on over to this Holy Grail site and enjoy Scene 2 all over again :-) I was initially going to name this post "I'm Not Dead", and then I was trying to remember how that scene went.. and that adding "You're not fooling anyone, you know" wouldn't make any sense. Oh well...damned Pythonophiles anyway :-P
The picture is of the Health building at Tunney's Pasture, taken from the 9th floor of the JT Bldg. No, it's not my office, but I often sit in the dedicated Internet office that this window fronts. It's no one's office. Anyone can go in there when they start going blind from gazing at their computer and want to look out the window. Well, actually they go in there and look at ANOTHER computer. I'm probably the only one that actually uses the window (that is, when I'm not updating my Scrabble games on Facebook...)

So, yes, the rumours of my death haven't been exaggerated. I returned to work Nov 26th... right around when I last posted to this Blog. Coincidence? I don't think so... I haven't stopped writing, just stopped posting (again, sorry.) I finished the NaNoWriMo in November, topping out at 50,400 words or so. I've been writing on completing that project on and off. I've also spent some time working on completing my 3-Day Novel Contest Entry and trying to turn it into an actual book. (The results are in, and sadly neither Carol L. nor I were winners. Oh well!)

The real victory was the completion of the work, and the submission of said work, not necessarily walking away with a gigantic prize. (Although I do like gigantic prizes.) It was also excellent practice to learn the rote of organization and time management. These two particular creatures are my nemeses (nemesesessss :-) Although a Virgo by birth, I am not naturally an organizational genius. I do it if I have to. And it has to be a life-or-death situation (like sorting out tax stuff. And even then, my Mom {another Virgo} had to help me out!)

In any case, I'm slowly being shoe-horned into a mold that is not really my natural environment. Organization, punctuality, coherence... Yeah yeah. All of it makes working in my new Division a little easier. Working in publications and not data capture makes it A LOT easier. I'm doing stuff I moderately enjoy, with a crew that respects me and appreciates what I do. Go figure! After designing the logo and the poster for the 20th anniversary of the publication we produce, I was even given a gift and a thank you card. I can't recall ever getting anything like that at a previous job. Ever!

So, yeah; it grates a bit, but the fit is loosening as I wear it. Like my shoes, it takes time to get comfortable in something new, especially a job. What really makes the difference is that I am splitting my time better between the 7:30 am - 3:30 pm work and my real work. I'm still drawing, writing, doing the things I love. If you can't do the things you love... what the hell are you doing?

I'm finding ways to keep happy: Tai Chi, Belly dancing, doing WW again and falling into the beautiful eyes of a lovely woman. I'm crazy crazy again, and it feels like hot and cold running water: ice and lava bursting across the planes of my skin. I write Haikus, I sip Bridgehead coffee, I fall deeper and deeper into the crevasses of her warmth and the glow of her smile. It is beautiful, and painful; a rush of wind and the sweet crystal silence of a winter wood. Who knows how it will all unravel. In the meantime, it is a wonderful ache that keeps it all rolling forward.

This is her chair, ottoman and table.
The table has been sold, but the chair and ottoman are still up for grabs: $300 negotiable :-) Send me an offer, and this lovely stuff could be yours. The chair and ottoman were newly purchased for about $700 a couple of years ago. I've tried them and they are in prime shape and super comfy. Check out the listing on Facebook!

Hanging in there by the skin of teeth and fingers.
I shall post more...serious :-)
Suz.

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